Nick_m - Lowest feeling lyrics

Im just sick of life I dont know what im doing anymore Sometimes i just wish i don't make it another night Cos it feels like im just stumbling through life Like no matter what i do ill never get it right And this is the first time im telling anybody about that night That i stood in my kitchen with that knife While my brother and my dad was in bed And im telling you it was the thought of them having to see me on the floor running through my head Is the only reason im writing this song Instead of being six feet under and dead And the worst part is the people i risked everything for Turned there back on me and made me pick myself up of that dirty f**ing floor I swear to god its like ive forgotten how to smile And my lyrics will never have a filter And i know its gonna get better even if it takes a while I tried with her and for what she did ill never trust her 2016 has taught me not to trust anyone Cos she'll say your her only one But you better believe she has like 20 no.1's The main thing ive learnt is that life is like a playground swing some people have someone behind em pushing em so they dont have to worry about falling behind And then you get the ones who do it all by themselves pushing them self up but always falling back down Everytime trying to make sure there feet don't scrape of the ground And all ive ever wanted to do was make my family proud And my only dream is to leave this piece of sh** town So imma do what i gotta do