NewDerseyBeats - Trust Issues lyrics

[Verse 1] I hope one day you understand what you truly mean to me I Never had somebody who promised that they would stay I instead sat alone, with a blank face everyday It ain't easy, I gotta say I was lost at times so I prayed, and I prayed No answers, so I lied and I cried Said it comes with some time so I tried and I tried In the end I just "died" I broke down inside, I ain't lying to ya' And baby if I said my heart wasn't broken, I'd be lying to ya' Damn And I ain't asking that you fix it but I'm f**ed up as it is When you're so used to being used to the point that you don't wanna live. My hearts broken, f**ed up, it's shattered and bruised. Pumping nothing but cold blood to something never to be used. But I did this to myself, I mean who else could I blame? I put my heart in her hands and she just put it to shame. And now I have to believe every girl I'm with isn't the same? I'm loosing my mental. I'm going insane Yeah But I think thats why I love you so f**ing much, cause I loose track of myself but you bring me back in touch with, life. And keep me focused while I'm living. And I'll never take another breath for a given now listen.. I never knew what it meant to love somebody more than myself until I looked her in her eyes and realized I wasn't by myself In love with the way she loves me but nothings ever what it seems its like I, wanna say forever but people come just to leave. Playing games with emotions like they got tricks up they sleeve, like do you say what you mean? Or playing like you on a team? You feel me? I said baby do you feel me? [Verse 2] Well, forgive me for my doubts I don't mean no disrespect, but everybody who promised to stay is everybody that left. And I know you feel me, I know you feeling my pain, I know you can relate to this sh** so don't you leave me in vain. Cause this world is a bright place but on occasion it rains, and we stuck in the dark but I love to think of your light Cause sometimes we argue, and yes sometimes we fight But the sun rises soon, I think we'll make it tonight And I'll kiss you on the neck, whisper that we'll be alright But its hard to trust when all I ever knew were these lies, and it's hard not to give a f** when all I ever did was try. When all I ever wanted someone to call mine (but why search for something that I'll never find?..) [Verse 3/Outro] So darling, before I rest my head to sleep. I want you to know that my heart is yours and yours only to keep. Please, don't ever think that it's not. I got these trust issues but baby your all that I got. And I hope you understand my misery and get my situation, forgive me if I take your sleep with these late night conversations but it's therapy, and your voice is therapeutic. Im broken but I take the pain and use it, the person I love shouldn't be the same person making me loose it. I overthink when your gone, well maybe I just miss you. Or maybe Im just angry, or maybe I'm just sad, or maybe Im just stupid, or maybe Im just mad, or maybe Im just lost, or maybe Im just overthinking Well sh**, maybe Im wrong? Yeah...maybe Im wrong Maybe I'm an idiot who should've never wrote this song In love with you all.. And hate to think that you'll ever be gone TRUST ISSUES