New Madrid - Not Up to Me lyrics

I don't wanna go where I cannot ride I don't wanna hold your light in the sky Lookin' on down, always on time You run my, run my life It's not up to me, it's not up to me Looking away, god I wished you'd stayed Similar the pain builds up its own haze All my dreams locked in your gaze Fade into black, fade it away It's not up to me, it's not up to me If you wait up, stay up, wait up Stay up, wake up, stay up, wait up It's not up to me