Naturalist - Rapture lyrics

I've been thinking about d**h lately and if my soul is worth saving. Repeat after me, never meant a thing. I haven't said a prayer since seventeen Oh my god, I'm twenty-five. What the f** am I doing with my life? d**h is the awareness of a beautiful life and I'm afraid I've been dead this entire time Goddamn, I used to be a better friend but now I cancel all our plans. Goddamn, I used to be a better man but now I spend most days in bed I've been thinking about d**h lately and if my wife would still wear her ring. Would me friends forget about me when my soul leaves my body? If god exists, he is the reason that I'm sick. If I could tell him anything, “stay the hell away from me.” This water is my only relief, I'm baptized in my disbelief. I still obsess over things and soon you will get tired of my apologies I'm sorry. I'll say it again. I'm sorry that I'm sick