Natalie Merchant - Jezebel lyrics

[Verse:] To think of my task is chilling To know i was carefully building the mask i was wearing For two years, swearing i'd tear it off I've sat in the dark explaining to myself That i'm straining too hard For feelings i ought to find easily Called myself jezebel I don't believe Before i say that the vows we've made Weigh like a stone in my heart Family is family, don't let this tear us apart You lie there, an innocent baby I feel like the thief who is raiding your home Entering and breaking and taking in every room I know your feelings are tender Inside you the embers still glow But i'm a shadow, i'm only a bed of blackened coal Call myself jezebel for wanting to leave I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word To describe the sacred tie that bound me to you I'm just saying we've mistaken one for thousands of words And for that mistake I've caused you such pain That i damn that word! I've no more ways to hide That i'm a desolate and hollow place inside I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word To describe the sacred tie that bound me to you I'm not saying love's a plaything No, it's a powerful word Inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you How i wish that we never had tried To be man and his wife To weave our lives into a blindfold Over both our eyes