NaeNae - Cleaning Out My Closet lyrics

These lyrics were submitted through RapPad - Write Better Lyrics Yo this might get a little personal, or a lot actually Viewer digression is advised Yo look, growing up I was never really civilized I was always the kid, skippin school, smokin pot, gettin vaporized An ill-judged crook, out runnin in the streets Always thinking imma make it somewhere with these f**ing beats Tryna make some money doing some dirty deeds See I ain't never shoot no body But I'll pull the trigger if you f** with my posse I never really had no real friends tho so I turned to d** Got hard into them, using and selling to thugs I was always sneaking out with guys, and telling major lies But this is all after the s**ual abuse started I mean i can remember most of it but its a bit spotted See it's difficult to open up those scars that never healed But ill show you most of the secrets i concealed It started by him saying about how beautiful I was Sayin how it wasn't fair we was cousins, that it was bosh He told me one day that he wanted me to be his wife He tried to work his way in between my thighs I punched and kicked and begged him to stop I started bleeding cause my cherry just popped I was scared to tell the truth cause i was afraid they'd just blame it on youth It happened so often that my mind started feeling foreign My mind went into dark places, f**ing distortion I didn't wanna live anymore so i tried committing suicide As many pills as I took, I honestly should've died And I really regret not taking just a few more Living life always knocking on closed doors It continued on for quite some time This is my way with dealing with it, speaking in rhymes My mental state just worsened everyday I had plans of d**h in every crooked way I imagined going on a k**ing spree, then I'd just flee On a chase with the feds, eventually shooting myself in the head Two years later down the road, he was still continuing on with his pathetic show Then the truth finally came out, word got around I solemnly swear that none of this is a lie It feels so good to get this off my chest with a heaving sigh Then it was publicized, that's when they finally sympathized He got locked away, come to think of it it's almost his last day Scary thing is that he said, soon as he gets out, he's gonna slit my throat Damn... guess I'm f**ed, sorry to end it on such a bad note....