Nadiak - Again... lyrics

i'm thinkin bout relapsin again i can't help it i always give in i'm scared to fly home i'm scared to die when i land cuz i kno my plug will be waitin there with open hands i wanna change i rly do but i can't cuz i dont kno who who i am i wanna be somebody that isn't just a f**in junkie but i dont kno how to be anythin besides me and this is me this is me this is all i wanna be i've never felt so f**in free