Murdock - Closure lyrics

(Verse 1) It hits you the first time you ever fall in love She expands my higher consciousness, you rose my up above Like the fro that I rock, I felt so ashamed of You told me embrace my beauty, show off who I really was A journey to feminism, a newfound respect for women Always had but not the genitalia to stand up and fight with em I'm sorry Ms. Jackson, I suffer from madness Mom and Pops made one of the baddest women up on this planet But granted, met you on campus, thought you was cute Didn't expect that senior year you'd end up on my mattress Making love then sharing secrets, dialogue was so candid Holding me calming me down, when my tics were bad or I'm anxious Staring at you sleeping through the night: Perfection on canvas And then Poof! Your pillow's empty and the night fades to blackness No time to batten the hatches, destruction happened to Athens I must submit to the sadness, knowing what we had turned to ashes (Bridge) So I drank and I smoked... So I found my own way to cope with everything But the thing was, I wasn't even moving forward Instead I was standing there. Completely. Still... (Verse 2) Now it's been months and you must think I'm out of my mind but I swear that I'm trying, till these new excuses I find Of a young dumb stoner that met a fun alumn persona Tested me in ways much harder than earning my diploma I admit I was distracted through the plays that I acted Thought a day off inactive, meant from the plans you'd be subtracted I'm ashamed of senior when I just took for granted, you're ten steps ahead of the game would have thought you just planned it GODDAMN IT! The errors I made, I can't stand it, but we're both guilty, I preferred manic than stranded I panic, the thought of my life without my companion's now canon The thought I f**ed up with my soulmate's one I can't even fathom Can you imagine: You had them, loosened up your grasp and let them slip away cause you're too busy sitting on your a** But I knew something was wrong cause I had an internal clash It was all new to me, we went from 0-100 fast and I crashed... (Bridge) And it seemed like everything in my life at that moment had shattered all at once But I've been picking up every single piece since Cause I got sh** to do (Verse 3) And now it's over a year later and I'm back on your facebook Getting over you how long this case took The magnitude was off the scales when this heartbreak shook So I remind myself one more time how your face look I swear my heart still skips a beat, you show up on my newsfeed The memories they flood my head so quick and so profusely Everything was going smoothly, every week we grabbin' sushi We'd go back to theatre days and make drama our duty Nothing but broken expectations, yelling starts so rudely But did we both say things we regret? Oh absolutely But I never let anybody else in that deep, so it wasn't just you who then met the true me But truthfully by the end I couldn't stand what I saw How could pa**ion so raw make us say things so wrong? When I was done I began the journey to the man I must become, while also trying to live it up, I'm young and trying to have some fun And I'm moving forward everyday my life has gotten better and I wish the same for you cause it seems like it's not when we're together And as we move our separate ways to journey on our adventures, the thought enters to live my life with myself in the center because it's time for me right now it's time for me It's time for me right now it's time for me right now It's time for me right now it's time for me right now It's time for me right now it's time for me right now It's time for me right now it's time for me right now It's time for me right now it's time for me right now It's time for me right now it's