Mr.Sunshine - If I Die lyrics

[intro] [verse 1] I'm lost, I need a better compa** because looking up north isn't making me see, so please God help me, help me, would I have words like Jeremiah? What am I? Who am I? I have no idea Sane paradox, same thoughts, I want to sleep but I can't sleep I'm tired of ZzzQuil on the nightstand, 3...2...1 shot Sleep's a drug that I love, I love, Sleep's the drug that I love This is what I didn't had planned but what did I expect? With the divorce, not seeing my brothers and mom for years And seeing them one day telling me she's dead, how could I tear in remorse? My family had it worse, but I'm dealing it worse now, it's the same Day N Night Like d** are bad right? but, I've been doing d** all of my life since I was 3 Just to make me fit in but I don't wanna, I don't agree But I did, anyways, seemed cool but then I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed [Chorus] If I die now, who would remember me? Would my family feel sorrow? Most likely If I die tomorrow, how would the world see? What will they see? [Verse 2] I always wish I'm someone different, I imagine it everyday, staring at myself in the mirror Searching for my inner self, my hopes and near dreams, all it seems is I got nothing to say I'm thinking here, I'm thinking I never had love, I got lots to say Hey Hyde I'm looking at the twinkling stars, wondering, if I'll ever be there I hope to mend, far behind this chasing shade I always wish I'm someone different, but at the end I'm different, I'm always gonna be different [Chorus] If I die now, who would remember me? Would my family feel sorrow? Most likely If I die tomorrow, how would the world see? Will people understand? What will they see? [Verse 3] Sometimes I'm utterly depressed, I thought was a lost soul Nah I'm a found soul in a lost world, trying to shine my best and the best girl No need for the fame in this game, Just making a difference is my claim I was told to be happy, that's what I'm claiming, that's no shame Good riddance I got patience and some confidence Look at my past evidence, I could be more disobedience, you could feel grievance But I'm not trying to embrace my past, I'm trying to embrace who I am Because that's what will last, I give a damn about my existence Say what you say of who I am Who am I is up to you to decide Could be truth or could be lies But I'm remembered if I die