Mothers - It Hurts Until It Doesn't lyrics

I felt alive for a little while But when I died I had the time to notice I was crushed by the weight of my own ego But never honest enough to say it I felt your love for a little while But never had the guts To give myself up I said that I could be just what you wanted As if I could ever keep a promise You have eyes in every room But you won't see me walk away Once I was More than just a song to play On your haunted tape I don't want to be away Could have sworn I heard you laughing in the doorway I don't like myself when I'm awake