Never been sure of what life was made of I don't want to live without knowing an end And sometimes I wonder, have you ever screamed my name in the middle of the night It becomes an everyday swore, it's never healing The sun hasn't shined for years in this life So we force ourselves sick to just self destruct Digging deeper into the ground, alone. I closed my eyes Close the curtains. lock the doors. Voices i tried to ignore I tried. I failed. I hated. I have died And I wonder, have you ever screamed my name in the middle of the night