Molly Venter - Sit Here lyrics

Drivin the backroads of hill country My station turned to NPR It's 3:30 in the morning And I could cry, but I'm not tired Cause I don't keep normal hours anymore I stop in to use the bathroom At some pit-stop 7-11 And man that store just shines Like a kid in a toy store I am up and down the aisle From our impulsive purchase power They are building an empire And we are a culture of marketing quick fixes And I am the ultimate consumer I buy cigarettes, diet soda, Some sugared meal replacement bar I have not lost my sense of humor And the real test, the real test Is just learning how to sit here The real test is to feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow Cause I wanna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's drivin me And I wanna stun myself sick And pa** out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty And you and I we would feed off our desire Cause it would get us so damn high I used to need you like a drug And nights I waited for you to come home And I felt like I was gonna explode But the truth is I did not know how to love And I sit down to write your birthday card And finally realize less is more And besides at this point everything's been said I am sad and I am fearful I licked the stamp and got real tearful Will these thoughts ever leave my head? And the real test, the real test Is just learning how to sit here The real test is to feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow Cause I wanna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's driving me And I wanna stun myself sick And pa** out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty And now there's this girl singing up on stage And she looks about my age And her words come out so eloquent and true I stop dead in my tracks I'm shocked at my reaction Cause I'm inspired but thinking It undermines what I do And I flip-flop between feeling That I ought to be some next big thing And that I fear they will discover me as a fake And I say I don't care about win or lose But I'm petrified to make one bad move If I let it go would I discover that I am safe And the real test Is just learning how to sit here To feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow And I'm not gonna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's driving me And I won't stun myself sick And pa** out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty I'm not going to do it just for today