Mockery Of Ideals - The Pit lyrics

Look at me How do you think that I can cope with this Don't you realize that I'm f**ing dead? Can't put up with this sh** in my head I'm lookin' out for the end. And I don't know How to stand up to myself instead I sit and wallow in my blood and filth Just wander out where I might be alone But I'm still f**in' dead But I Am surfacing (I can't see) Nothing's Permanent Here and Now Never enough for one of the broken Drowning here in my own sympathy Apathy is my greatest enemy Keep your enemies close How could I believe in this veil of life I Know that all I'm living for could never occur to I am lost I struggle on but I live at what cost? Approaching madness I hardly can see Why is it that I am allways alone? I'm lookin' out for the end. Here it is This is all that I will ever have. This is the sound of my hate and my loss I struggle on but I live at what cost? And I'm still f**in' dead! But I Am surfacing (I can't see) Nothing's Permanent Here and Now How could I believe in this veil of life I Know that all I'm living for could never occur to Carry me away from this failed attempt I dare not take your breath away, I'll never be chosen (-lieve Veil of life I know the end is near to me Dear to me I'm losing sight, falling away from Dreams of mine, I lose them day by day I'm sinking deeper and deeper Into this Pit I fear.)