MIAME - Hold Me lyrics

[Verse 1] Ever since the day ive been put on this earth I always felt cold but warmer with every verse I put into words cause wisdom is cursed When your lonely and you know exactly why thats the worst Feelin you can get My eyes are always wet From all that ive been through They told me to get some help So i knelt by my bed Closed my eyes with a tilted head And whispered under my breath God, forgive me for the sins that i have committed And yet to have delivered I swear to you that ima stay strong till its time for me to visit But guide me with your light and show me with your knowledge Whats right and what isnt Ive made bad decisions In the name of the greater vision That now i wish i ddnt Cause im only human but i feel like dead to the livin I look into the mirror and i know something's missing Is it faith? Should i saith? What i say And do what i may Cause when i do I see nothing great But instead i regret it all from the first day Cause if i want heaven then i know hell is to pay [Chorus] HOLD ME closer when i die Im in booth spittin bout my own damn life Everyday i wake to a new heart ache But i put on a smile and i say its all great HOLD ME and listen to my hidden pain Cause when i spoke about it, it drove the sain To change But no matter what they say Ill keep it real Cause I ain't a superman but im the man of steel [Verse 2] Diagnosed with depression since the age of seventeen Waitin for the morning when it all gets clear Cause my life is a blur With the problems that I stirred Had nothin to refer to When i needed explanation Religiuosly weak compared to the house that I was raised in Some nights Id stay up late To talk to god about the weight Thats been put on my chest Am I cursed am i blessed Is he gonna decide with the outcome of this test The messenger of misery Would often visit me Have me go to the kitchen and sniff gas on the kitchen seat Till my hands slip off And i feel my body crash On the ground as my life slowly starts to pa** From head to toe Like a shred of gla** For every wrong decision i made in lifes cla** But I had no teacher Was my own devil and preacher So take a walk in my shoe And tell me where you'll reach too [Chorus] HOLD ME closer when i die Im in booth spittin bout my own damn life Everyday i wake to a new heart ache But i put on a smile and i say its all great HOLD ME and listen to my hidden pain Cause when i spoke about it, it drove the sain To change But no matter what say Ill keep it real Cause I ain't a superman but im the man of steel [outro] Hold me closer when I die Im in the booth spittin bout my own damn life Hold me and listen to my hidden pain Cause when i spoke about it, it drove the sain to change Cause I ain't a superman But im the man of steel