MF DOOM - I Wonder lyrics

[Ha**an Chop:] That's right I got problems and personal issues Stories that'll make ya-eyes tear and wet tissue Its true, I'm (Madd) like the (Rapper) I'm so upset I gotta put it up in my rap before I snapper After the things I've seen from Atlanta to Queens To the mean streets of Brooklyn when I was a teen Back and forth to the Islands, scream when I left But adapted, and still my dreams haven't left I only hung with the crack kids we not the best Me and the ruffest ruffnecks went chest to chest Now my best friend's locked up north I won't rest Til I let him live his dream threw me and I confess That even though both our hearts was dark his was darker Best believe when sh** got spark he was the sparker And when the block got hot he was the fire starter And if I had beef my n***a Raja was a martyr I wonder how certain people come in my life I wonder why'd I get in so many fights I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right Why I gotta live this life hey hey I wonder how certain people come in my life I wonder why'd I get in so many fights I wonder...why I gotta live this life hey hey Yo you one of the most important people in my life They called you Dice but I called you cousin We was buggin cause I figured that we both had something in common You loved to chat reggae music and I loved rhymin But still they ain't call you Dice for nothin I seen you shoot with the williest cats and leave them with nothing Somethin must have pleased that bluffer in you To make you wanna take dough from those tougher than you Threw out school we made money together When you was on the floor shootin, I was the side better And yo we cleaned out them cats and took the scraps But you wasn't a ruff cat and cats knew that I knew eventually them thugs would try to hurt you If I was there, I'd never let nobody hurt you, its hurtful I knew they wouldn't let you take the money and run That's why I shoulda came when you told me to come I wonder how certain people come in my life I wonder why'd I get in so many fights I wonder...Why I gotta live this life hey hey I wonder how certain things don't go right I wonder why'd I get in so many fights I wonder...why I gotta live this life hey hey Yo it was June sixth 96 Graduation night Made it through the school shish shootin dice gettin in fights I even sparked a riot, til the school got quiet And dismiss just got tired of usin my fists We had some sh** like knife pipes bottles and sticks Can't forget them 380's, Nine's and 22's Best believe, many dudes was paid in my crew We made a name for ourselves boy I've seen some drama Seems my momma never dreamed she'd go threw so much trauma comma, pause you Ask about cops and laws Well that sh** don't exist when you black and poor So we broke em, but at that night my heart got broken Choken on the weed smoke drinkin rum and gettin open Not to mention, never a big drinker I'm a thinker But I'm thinkin hey this my night, pa** me more liquor Fight breaks out, I'm just too nice to get in it But my brother got stabbed and I missed it Word up, its crazy Why I gotta live this life (wonder) hey hey I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right I wonder why certain people come in my life I wonder.. yeah.. why I gotta live this life hey hey I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right I wonder why'd I get in so many fights I wonder...hey why I gotta live this life hey hey I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right I wonder why I gotta live this life I wonder...why I gotta live this life ay ay uh ay That's right...your life..