Messiah - Living With A Confidence lyrics

I look in the mirror, I see another face Waiting for my end will be my painful race My appearance has altered since I consulted my surgeon He told me about my illness, will survive one season Drinking is what I need to forget my daily sorrow Sadness is forgotten, will feel better tomorrow Living with a confidence will not be better My body is going weaker, my walking is a stagger [Chorus:] Jesus, I beg of thee, redeem my endless pain Forgive my sin and save my life, that's only what I need I prayed to you, every night, is this your thank to me? I know you made this illness and drove me insane It's my intention to fight this battle against you Truth and denomination destroyed my life There exists only hate and rage in my head Pictures of my childhood cross my brain all the time Happiness was easy, there weren't evil minds Sadness was a foreign word, I never felt better I played with my friends, day in, day out I've got a lot of thoughts about my future My body's a piece of misery, I'm crippled like a creature Perishing in my bed and watching children play Shall I wait for my end, will this be the right way My torment is getting stronger, suicide is my solution Nobody will cry for me, they will treat me like a felon Everybody has forsaken me, delivery is my knife Will suicide be the way to search for a new life [Chorus]