MCTH - Contemplation lyrics

Contemplation by M.C.T.H [Tough] In Life you go through alot of trails and tribulations.... (M...C...T...H...) I'll share a few of mines [Verse 1: Tough] Sittin on this CTA, wondering what,.. became of me This here wasn't susposed to be, 25 with no degree Pops died in "93", he went by the name of Johnny B Ma said he died from natural causes Naw mane,...he OD'd Boo, your daddy died, my grand mama replied I knew he wouldn't survive, he was sentenced to that pipe At the funeral, I couldn't cry, my whole family was high In-cl-cluding his wife, I couldn't beleive my eyes Not a sober, adult in sight, they didn't want sh** outta life, this kid knew it wasn't right My mother was a liar, flashback to three years prior This kid had a desire, Christmas day was pretty tired Filled with liquor and lighters No toys for two boys, hell naw, we weren't excited We were too young to riot, told to Sit down, be quiet, they always Tried to bribe us, thought a bag of vitner chips and quarter juice Would hide the truth, but we kids were smart..we knew Exactly what, they were up to When they disappeared into that room It reminded me of a booth, but they weren't reciting rhymes It was more like snorting lines,...and sharing missles You wouldn't beleive the broken mirrors Filled with c**aine residue, that sh** was pitiful Chorus X2 (Hard) Sometimes I take a walk down memory lane And wonder if somethings were different would I still be the same But Yo, I gotta move forward, gon and get on that train I won't forget it, but I bet it never happen again Cause when my shorties go down memory lane They gon remember all the good times, never the pain They gon say my daddy had me, and I couldn't complain That's how I know my struggle wasn't in vain