Matthew Murnan - Musings lyrics

[Verse 1: Big Burn] Hey Big Burn grow up and start a family All your facebook friends are married with babies The American dream is yours for the taking Give up and live vicariously f** that not gonna lay the mic down yet Too many demons to get off my chest Too much youthful exuberance left To cash my loneliness insurance check Like New Hope I can feel the walls caving in Wish I could see a ray of hope coming in The sad irony of a marketing major That can't get his f**ing music heard 8 years in this motherf**ing game And i got a measly 200 fans to my name? The world crushed my dreams into powdered form I'd change careers but my dick's to small for p**n Chorus 2x Got a lot of sh** to dump off my chest An introvert with topics to address So please sit back while I confess The musings of a melancholic mess [Verse 2: Big Burn] Props to my grandpa he's so successful Built a company from the ground up A self made man with good business sense It's a shame that i'll never live up to it How depressing that i have urges to quit When my career hasn't started yet This is supposed to be my f**ing prime But i'm just another fruitless rap paradigm 30 years old is drawing nigh So if this sh**'s gonna happen now is the time Reality is rappers don't age well Looking to youtube for that magic spell I pray that milkshake will be my viral savior Blow up like hopsin have my own tour Go for the gusto full f**ing bore And have skeptics doubt me nevermore Bridge Quarter life crisis I know it's cliché But the grim idea of d**h infiltrates My thoughts every minute of every day And my 21 grams are melting away It sounds f**ed up but sometimes i wish I wasn't wearing my seat belt when i hit That brick wall in that accident Dead on arrival for the ambulance [Verse 3: Big Burn] Alas i'm still stuck here on earth Please pa** that resident evil herb Cause I need to escape from this f**ed up world Sit and watch the vapors from the vape pen swirl Spent years developing good friendships What difference does it really make when People move on go their separate paths Next time they see my name is an obit paragraph Walter White like seething resentment Keeps growing I can't seem to stop it Hope keeps getting crushed by my fears Ashamed to look in the god damn mirror The aliens from my dad's anecdote Should finish what they started 30 years ago Abduct me like in fire in the sky Operate on my brain see what's wrong with my mind