Mary Magdalan - Wasted lyrics

All I felt was the rush….and my legs turned to mush… lost all my power to reason with my gut….lying on my back on this rosary i clutch frozen in the moment and i think im really f**ed……tonight im gonna die…..but i can see the sun come up…..im so f**in high i feel it running thru my blood…collapsing my lungs all this hate to which i've clung…..im deaf and im dumb what the f** have i done….. Hallucinating hold my hand i can't catch my breath…..and help me i've got pains in my chest…..paranoia's agitating cardiac arrest… A hypochondriac whos emulating visions of her d**h….i could have an aneurysm vessel bursting in my head half-dead like momma did i see her lying in the bed….can she see me lying naked on the floor…..praying to the lord cause i don't wanna live no more… Give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why won't you forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted….. Envision my oblivion saliva hangin on my chin another night of partyin with vomit on my cardigan druggin clubbin f**in up in public…..cookin up my demon in my betty crooker oven s** it base it dragons chase it im nameless and faceless….im so wasted...head is heavy eyes are rolling feeling like my skin is boiling puking in a dirty toilet Spasming i can't control it….help me let me out… Or imma die tonight in some f**in strangers house……teeth and tongue are numb with all my might I try to shout no matter what i do no words are coming out……(scream) mind is snapped my relapse poisoned from rejection and im about to f**ing crack…..fade to black …as this euphoria enslaves me….lord take me back....why won't you come and save me…… Give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why won't you forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted