Mary Gauthier - March 12, 1966 lyrics

Hello this is Mary, oh yeah, march 11, 1962 It took me 500 dollars and 40 years to find you I know it's almost Christmas, I don't mean to make you cry Now you ask me why I called, I don't know why Hello, hello, say something don't leave me hanging here like this If there's something right to say right now I don't know what it is This is the hardest thing I've ever done and I'm terrified Now you ask me why I'm calling I don't know why You said I'm a secret and nobody knows and you can't talk about it and you really got to go you wish you'd done it different then but you did not know how and it's too late to change any of it now I must have thought about this moment about a hundred thousand times but I never could get past how long or imagine what I'd find I guess somewhere deep inside of me I knew I was a lie don't ask me why I'm calling I don't know why! You said that you love me but I'm a secret you can't tell and the hole you hide is wider than the weighted gate to hell You wish you'd done it different then but you did not know how and It's too late to change any of it now Look I know we're strangers but we might just hurt the same I'm not looking for 'I'm sorry' I'm not looking to lay blame I guess I had to thank you once before this life went by yeah that's why I called, 'Goodbye'