Mary Gauthier - Goddamn HIV lyrics

My name is Michael Joe Alexandre I've been a queer since the day I was born. My family, they don't say much to me, My heart knows their silence has scorn My friends have been dying, all my best friends are dead I walk around these days, with their picture in my head Spending my time thinking 'bout the things they say I don't know whats happening to me, goddamn HIV And I don't know what all this means I don't think it means what it seems We used to party all night 'til the dawn I can still see the boys with their tight leather on In the downtown bars, where it always is night I can hang with my friends 's still allright I was 30 when the thickness first came And it rode through my world like a wind driven flame. Leaving ashes, memories, funerals and pain And I don't know what's happening to me, goddamn HIV And I don't know what all this means I don't think it means what it seems When I was a boy I get scared at night My momma would come, turn on the light But there's nobody here with me tonight And I don't know what's happening to me Sometime at dusk I walk the train track And I walk and I walk but I ain't coming back I look at the sky so endless and black Men I swear its swallowing me Goddamn HIV