Marcus Velazquez - Keep Breathing lyrics

You seek others affirmations, and disregard your own Does it come from lack of interaction back at home It could be, I used to act like i didn't bother me One trick pony, if I wasn't cracking jokes I was lost Cool facade, hit everyone with the shrug like "Who cares?" When deep down things would hold me down deep Under water and hover above the surface Screaming "f** you, fight for air." So I did It's a process, clawing my way up Not with colors flying I'm more so hovering and I'm not tired Yet I have ambition to do better To fly higher Still have issues with speaking in circumferences Beat around the bush so much It's like I had a crush on the ex-presidents twins Some days I felt like I was fighting for my existence That's unbeknownst to my friends and my kin But I would do it all the same all over again Everything I'm not makes me everything I am People try to connect with me And I act so aloof, it's not on purpose Sometimes I just need some space and time alone Communication wasn't strong growing up at home I'd rather not spend the evening glued to my phone Four page text message just to be saved and deleted Because I'm wondering if I should share everything Or just keep to myself I know at times I just want rea**ured and can be demur I know at times I'm self conscience and feel a bit insecure But who the hell doesn't, and I'm not afraid to admit I've had a ton of epiphanies and they've all been terrific But when you're no longer depressed or upset What is that Because that's where I'm at right now