Malay Ho - Disappear lyrics

[Verse 1] Daddy I've been thinkin' about you lately Mama's never here and step daddy hates me He drinks a lot, it makes him so mean Mama always screams and it gives me bad dreams Today I dropped my bowl of s'ghetti on the floor I didn't mean to make a mess, I tripped on one of my toys I tried to clean it up, really I tried But I just made it worse so I went to my room to hide I knew if Benny saw it I'd be in so much trouble I didn't want to, but I did And the thought of gettin' hit scared me so I didn't tell him Benny saw it, he took off his belt and You know... he hit me with it Then he pushed my face in to the carpet where the s'ghetti spilted But I forgive him though I love you daddy, I guess I gotta go [Hook] There's a moth on my window seal And it came to die alone Through the pain of the pouring rain I gaze into the storm And I imagine I'm the son of a man Who will hold me close and near With these bruises on my face I cry While I pray to disappear [Verse 2] Daddy are you there? I know you're probably busy off working somewhere Helpin' somebody, build a house or somethin' neat You told me what you did, carpentry, right? Man, that's so cool, daddy I really miss you, so much that I would kiss you Yeah even front of my friends I guess you know I'm gettin' sick again I've been throwin' up, I haven't been playin' much I missed a lot of school this week, but I'm tough I'll make it, you know me, daddy I don't get what I want most of the time but I'm patient Hey if you get a second Maybe tomorrow you could come by just to check in Because my babysitter's crazy Mama don't believe me but she makes me get naked And I'm embarra**ed so I hide it I'm tellin' you because you know my heart and what's inside it I gotta go to sleep but don't turn off the lights I love you daddy, or should I say Christ? I gotta go to sleep but don't turn off the lights I love you daddy, or should I say Christ? [Hook] There's a moth on my window seal And it came to die alone Through the pain of the pouring rain I gaze into the storm And I imagine I'm the son of a man Who will hold me close and near With these bruises on my face I cry While I pray to disappear [Outro] When the weeping willow tree sways from the breeze I float away To the end of the world, to the moon, to the stars To the heavens where I'm safe I'm a child, not a prey. I'm an angel, enslaved I'm a life, I'm a world, I'm a rose, put to waste Wake me up, let me live, let me breathe, let me breathe Give me love, give me soul, give me guidance, give me peace Disappear