Madluv - Twenty lyrics

[Verse 1: The Wilde] I'm feelin like an idiot, I'm feeling like a failure I'm feelin' like I'm f**in' up and I am going nowhere Hand cramps, band camp, no rhythm, can't dance Every day I wake up it gets harder to stand I wanna catch a break like a surfer, can't plan it Gotta sit and wait and paddle every f**ing day's a battle Ax and brawl, sonata, adderall Add it all up I'm a zero, gutter ball What are my motives? What do I want? To get over myself and express my thoughts But I'm getting pretty brainwashed pain washed down the drain All the drinks, d**, and melatonin mashes up my brain Insane like a headcase, in case you inquired Questioning my own spark and feeling uninspired Nineteen I can't retire, can't lie though man it haunts me What if I want the world but the world doesn't want me? [Hook] The give us pills for depression age fifteen Generation RX are you with me? I know that you're out there, I know you can hear me Seen too many attempts and no one thought clearly [Verse 2: The Wilde] Feelin' like I don't care, like I don't even want it I didn't want to say it but I think you caught on I'm a long ways away from where I was when I began Though I've gotten better never got a master plan Just a plastered ba*tard rapper slash a musical disaster Just an a**hole when depressed and the rest I'm just an actor Lack of motivation plays the culprit as a factor And I used to wanna be something now I'm just a slacker Waking up now and it's past noon, hacking a lung in the bathroom Pa**ed out last night did it cuz it felt right Dude you got a light? I'm burning at both ends Family friends and cla**es getting f**ed up again One hand got a bottle and the other got a pen Writing on a thin line and feeling on edge See it through my lens in the theatre of my mind Get f**ed up therefore I am wasting my f**ing time (Shoutout to Descartes) [Hook] The give us pills for depression age fifteen Generation RX are you with me? I know that you're out there, I know you can hear me Seen too many attempts and no one thought clearly I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty You can't take that from me I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty And I'm not done yet I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty I made it to Twenty Got a million left [Hook] The give us pills for depression age fifteen Generation RX are you with me? I know that you're out there, I know you can hear me Seen too many attempts and no one thought clearly