Madison X - One Day pt. II lyrics

[Chorus] I always told you one day I would be on top I always told you one day I'd make sense of it all One day, one day That day hasn't come quite yet [Verse 1] Life is up and down, I'm tired of this Time is on my side but sh** Seether in my head phones I wonder when I'll be fine again The d** and sh**? I tried to quit Tried to hide the signs of it "Oh, it's just my sinuses" Like anybody buys that sh** Tried to be positive, but I'm so different minus it Every time I'm high, that's when I decide to quit Like, no for real, this time is it The next day "one more line,that's it!" Knowing good and well one line wasn't ever it Some days I'm clean, some days I'm not Call it human nature, call it what you want But I can see the walls closing in And Rest in peace Nick Molden.. I don't want to die like my friend [Bridge] I don't know what's wrong with me It's like this pain belongs to me At least I got something I can call my own Where did I go wrong? [Chorus] [Verse 2] Life was never easy, before or after d** And if this sh** to personal, then skip and play my track for clubs I was 17 in DJ Dev's studio High off every f**ing thing I could be on I think it was like the 2nd time I met JellyRoll He sat me down and told me something no rapper had said before He said he heard I was doin coke on the regular I'll never forget the look he had when he said "that's the Devil, bruh" And either I was too young, too addicted, or too stupid To see past the illusion, of what I thought I was doing I never planned to be hooked I planned to quit After I had some fun I'd stop using eventually, of course that day has yet to come [Bridge] [Chorus] [Verse 3] Beauty is developed through pain, like wiped blood from a diamond Left to my own devices, I self destruct, every time sh** My best friend from childhood got married, and I was not invited I never made time to see his son, so that sh**s not surprising I ain't mad at him, by any means I'm mad at myself, like what's gotten into me? I've become so self obsessed that I put off a vibe like everybody else is less than That's never what I wanted when I wanted to make it I cannot believe I've become what i hated I always told myself I'd be humble and gracious But somewhere between then and now My heart has been traded