MadChild - Badchild lyrics

[Verse 1] High roller that's bipolar Bubbling but still missing something like I'm diet cola Trying to boss up like Tony Soprano I'm still a boss like I'm Joseph Bonanno Feel stranded on an island like I'm Gilligan Lost a couple teeth, went back to the grill again Fans acting like it's k**ing them, these cheap tricks Wasn't working so I went and got my teeth fixed Known for saying harsh remarks that are partially dark Samples chopped like it's martial arts Can't complain, kids like my art But feel like, I'm still waiting for my light to start Last three months catatonic, feeling miserable Walk around my city and I feel like I'm invisible Never felt like I had to ask it for dough Not Casper the Ghost tight grasping for quotes [Verse 2] Panic in my legs, feel heavy while I hallucinate Standing on a ledge about to jump but I'll rejuvenate Holding on, but I hope it's soon ‘Cause pills the only way I know to patch these open wounds Responsibility, literally k**ing me Life used to sparkle. Nothing's f**ing thrilling me Used to sit and gather my words, called it artillery Now life is torture, would madly end it willingly Reason I'm still here are for my dogs and my family I don't expect anyone to understand me When I was young, love, suicidal tendencies Now I'm older, I got suicidal tendencies Might be punished for my sins, that would make sense Starts a line once, haven't had a break since Maybe I should lower the bar, it's raised too high Maybe I should work harder, but I do try Used to walk around, thank god i'm the sh** Now feel like a piece of sh** in a bottomless pit Trying to build my strength like beam so I can climb out But life moves so fast, I need a time out