MadChild - Painful Skies lyrics

Look I know what I did And I'm not sitting here blaming anyone else I'm not feeling sorry for myself either Yo I listen to this beat it makes me think of what I've been through All of the mistakes and stupid sh** that I got into All the f**in' fakeness of people that I made friends with So 98 percent of those friendships, I had to end it I'm to old to be worried and keep pretending And I apologize to some of the people deeply offended But I can't live in the past, that sh** just wears me down That sh** just tears me up inside and f**ing tears me down I'm not the man I was then, but I am not running And I am not yet the man that I am still becoming I'm getting stronger everyday and I can f**ing feel it And all the problems of my past one day I'm gonna deal with Thanks for your patience I apologize for each occurrence And I just hope that you can take this as some rea**urance My life is good. each day is better than the next day But I have not forgotten won't settle till every debts payed Time changes Each man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Each life's a book with blank pages Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous Time changes Every man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels Look Let me make this clear I don't regret my whole past Can't believe how time flies, sh** has gone by so fast You let me in your secret world and that was quite an honor And I admit that that's a life I thought I might have wanted Probably of pursued If I hadn't gotten caught up But flags they started raising with these kids all gettin' shot up And I became addicted to a drug that almost took my life Lookin' back that might of been the only thing that saved my life I'm full of love now, I'm Happy. I don't harbor hatred Pretty sure that's how God wants us and to me that's sacred I'm not sitting here judging and calling ya'll some vagrants And I'm not pointing fingers questioning your occupations I'm just hoping that the way I feel can shine some light I know you got a good heart dawg. It's time to stop the fight And let yourself become the man that your supposed to be I still believe in you. No matter what, you're always close to me Time changes Each man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Each life's a book with blank pages Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous Time changes Every man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels And I know becoming friends again ain't possible, at least for years And f**ing up for me is still a problem that I deeply fear Only got a couple close friends now. That's how I like it And I think I'm actually gonna make it, but I'm not a psychic One of them's a brother proud to say that he's my best friend Come on man! you got some f**ing brothers, let this sh** end It's sad to me to see that greed is still The Devil's weapon I tried my best to walk away from sh** and kept steppin' Brothers doin' good, his heart is filled with love And we gon keep on building with these people that believe in us Remember there was four of us till d**h do us part Now there's only two of us the rest grew apart It doesn't mean I don't think about you too, every week And even if we never speak there's still a bond I'll never leave I hope your happy and your family is doin' awesome And hope that your still following the progress of the little monster You had a hand and that helped and saved my life, I won't forget Let's live the next half with no regrets, cause it ain't over yet Time changes Each man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Each life's a book with blank pages Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous Time changes Every man ages And sometimes best friends become strangers Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels