MadBliss - Shadows lyrics

[Chorus] And as the day becomes night and the sun goes down Dark shadows grow cold and cloak round your hometown It's the feeling of dread that's inside your head Makes you wonder what the hell happened [Verse 1] In the last twelve years I've been sliding all through my life Sitting up on the couch making wishes that I figured it out Why the hell you're still asleep and why you've deserved all of this sh** If you're looking for a sign, this is it I've been growing up, in school I barely made the cut This life, I gotta live it up, but the pictures always make my mouth shut Ain't it stupid? I'm still haunted by the sound of the cracking The picture of the blood on the blouse is the reason I've been slacking And your fathers drinking problem got even worse And your mother won't try to leave him, make it seem like she's been cursed And the man who hit you is still nowhere to be found And I still have these crippling feelings of self-doubt [Bridge] Still sitting on the couch I can't believe how I threshed around In my heart is a hole and in my head is a cloud Makes you wonder what the hell just happened [Verse 2] In the last twelve years ever since I hit that girl I've been smoking, drinking, kicking my money into a curve It seems like I still have not learned how to treat a person My wife said to her friends, she gets scared when I emerge And I don't understand it, but I probably should have stayed At the scene where her bones started twisting in shape The confused look on her face and the smell of sweat I wake up screaming at nights, thinking that I wet the bed And the voices in my head are screaming louder than ever And every thunder sounds like a scream in the weather Wether I am insane or not I do not really know But it seems my brain locks himself inside a flow [Chorus]