Lucidious - Reflections lyrics

[Lucidious: Verse 1] Yeah. All of these songs that we create can't even scratch the surface The reasons why we feel what we do why we write these verses To be honest sometimes I don't even know why I'm writin' I feel I'm torn between good and evil and I am frightened Sometimes I pray to god, sometimes I say I hate him sh** everyday I feel I'm living in an ultimatum Been a couple years since I been to a church on a Sunday And I keep on saying that I'ma figure it all out one day But I know that I'm lying, and I know that I have sinned And I know that I have pushed away every one of my friends And I know that I have rage, I release it with this pen I make a song and pretend that everything all makes sense…HA People tell me they feel it But part me just doesn't I ask myself would I write this sh** if nobody loved it Well I don't have the answer And even if I did I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again [Lucidious: HOOK] I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright [Lucidious: Verse 2] So, I find it funny I can write a problem 20 times In a different way with a different word and say a different rhyme But I keep on fighting this pain that I'm feeling deep inside Pissed that I wasted my time and I'm pissed that I lost my mind But every night that I try to sleep it seems I cannot find A minute of peace but when I decease will they believe I tried I need a relief but turn on the TV cannot believe my eyes and What do we see they make us believe all of the deceiving lies This was not the way that you were raised Disrespectful and misbehaving Why are you leaving I don't understand Fankly I really don't give a damn Father, you raised me well but I am my own man I make my own mistakes, I'm doing what I can People tell me they feel it But part me just doesn't I ask myself would I write this sh** if nobody loved it Well I don't have the answer But even if I did I'd still run my mind in circles and say it all again [Lucidious: HOOK] I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright [Lucidious: Verse 3] And at the end of the day we all make a sacrifice We have to make a decision we gotta roll the dice Man I hope I rolled it right, but I know if I rolled it wrong My friends and family will be there the day that I get home And when im all alone, you can find me writing these Raps that I put together fighting my uncertainty But certainly I cannot serve everyone perfectly to those who have not heard of me I hope I earn your courtesy Trust me I know its tough, at times we all get down I felt this way for years, I just record it now Ain't for the fame I'm doing this to make my family proud And the love I feel when I'm on a stage and they are screaming loud So when you're the feeling struggle and you're feeling the pain You gotta know you're not the only one feeling this way Follow me by my voice, won't you just take my hand We'll make it through together one day we will understand [Lucidious: HOOK] I'm walking through the life that I been given and I'm hoping that I make it alright Lookin' in the mirror tryin' to find the man I am nobody is in sight I'm taking the only road that I know and I'm just hoping it'll all be alright And when I fade away I just hope that you understand everything is alright