Lucidious - Conviction lyrics

All of my life I been trying to get it right I keep gripping on this mic I ask the Lord to take my soul into the night Looking within man I been struggling with an addiction I can't get up and I been stuck inside of this affliction Pain I'm feeling I think that I'm in a bad condition I hear myself saying to stop, I never listen Will I ever forgive myself for all these bad decisions? Even if I did will God given me his blessed permission Let me into his kingdom I've lived in opposition Will you hear my submission preaching with my own conviction What happened to my ambition that I had when I was a kid I lost my mission, I'm in a prison I'm hearing the record skip Incarcerated by these bars that I put into words Contemplating conformity so my musics heard People tell me they feel what I say, even if it burns Not a negative person don't ever misinter-pret the messages that I convey If I did it I swear that it wasn't on purpose I'm giving you everything that I have got Spitting the truth in all of my verses [Lucidious: Verse 2] Lot of people say to be honest when I write my music But honestly my honesty would come off too intrusive How can I rap about this sh** in a club on a Friday night Exchange my thoughts for getting money and them b**hes hyped I care about my family, I care about my image I care that one day my grandchildren will hear all my lyrics One day I'll be a father One day I'll make mine proud One day I'll be watching over my family in the clouds When I made changes and reflections I was stressing and damn Still looking in the mirror trying to find who I am Man I ran away from home, I left my girl alone I took a shot in the dark and I left my comfort zone I'm pretty proud of that no one can take it from me To those who stayed by my side you'll be here for all the glory Protect those that I love and I carry y'all in my heart I know that y'all will be there even if I fall apart [x2] [Lucidious: Verse 3] Man I graduated college And I began to acknowledge There's a lot more to life then being socially polished Find people that you love hold em close and never let go Take a chance in your life or you're never gonna grow Say what's real when you're talking about what you really feel No point in hiding behind insecurities you fear Look at me I took a leap of faith displaying my flaws Even though I know everyone I know is gonna hear this song Man I used to kick back with Eminem on I would listen in awe drift away with headphones on Dream of the lights the stage and the action I am thankful to all of my role models who gave me this pa**ion that I was lacking Live like you'll die today, dream like you'll live forever A quote that I follow I learned from my desperate measures But I keep on pushing I see the sun through the stormy weather I bow my head and pray knowing one day it will get better [x2] Will get better