A cold and early dawn For a man gone so wrong Another lonely way of wasting time So late into the night It wasn't long ago I was counting my days With anger and boredom and fear and pain Back then I just wanted to even the score The pain doesn't translate the same anymore I'm not going back again I'm not the man I was back then I will start again I will start again I'm not going back my friend I'm not the man I was back then I couldn't slow it down I know I got mean I couldn't feel a thing, they couldn't touch me None of those young girls could understand How slowly k**ing oneself takes A toll on man I'm not going back again I'm not the man I was back then I will start again I will start again I'm not going back my friend I'm not the man I was back then A cold and early dawn For a man gone so wrong Another lonely way of wasting time So late into the night I'm not going back again I'm not the man I was back then I'm not going back again I'm not the man I was back then I will start again I will start again