Lucas Charlie Rose - Emotional Hit & Run lyrics

[Lucas Charlie Rose:] I need to heal Cause I feel like my soul is broken Feel like I lost touch with reality Yeah my head is spinning I'm feeling exposed Feel like somebody stole my secrets Like my heart is on the ground And anybody could step on it I'm trynna look forward but I'm being held back Feel like my truth doesn't belong to me Like I should take it back But how can it not be real if I'm feeling like this? Something had to happen if I'm bleeding like this Been left to my defences on the side of the road Emotional hit and run, didn't know but now I do I remember sh** better every day that goes by I can see so much clearer now but I still feel like I could give her my whole world she just gotta ask Wanted to spend my life with her and that ain't in the past Cause God you know I love her and I can't take that back But I need to stop hoping that she will take me back [Jhene Aiko:] I don't need you [x4] But I want you I don't mean to [x4] But I love you [Lucas Charlie Rose:] I know I shouldn't be spending so much time thinking 'bout her My friends keep telling me that I deserve so much better But I can't seem to care, she's all I want it's clear And I know that her love is toxic but I find myself praying That she'll apologize, say everything will be fine Say "Lucas I'm sorry and I still wanna be your wife." But at the same time I can't hide The fact that I'm terrified Of being gaslit again cause I know I can't handle that And she got so much power, she makes me feel so weak She got a whole army and I only have me Me and my music, me and my lyrics So I listen to my songs on repeat cause I know they believe me That they believe my pain That they believe my brain That they will never doubt me They'll always keep me sane [Jhene Aiko:] I don't need you [x4] But I want you I don't mean to [x4] But I love you And though I don't need you [x4] I still want you I don't mean to [x4] But I, but I love you