Lucas Bain - Dear Diary lyrics

Dear diary, i've got a lot in store for you Keeping you informed with all the sh** that i'm going through I'm callin names out, i ain't holdin nothin in Blame my pen; if they don't agree; that f**in s**s for them My ex rebecca, that no one seems to care about They always talk sh**, man I'm f**ing flippin out Thats my ex girl, only I can sh** talk her Next b**h to talk sh**, i swear im blockin her Next is chandler, f**; i'm really mad at you Why would you lie, blowin any trust i had in you When I was pulling down the wall; you went and f**ed it up Messed it up, we stopped communicating cause I had enough You'd starting a**uming sh**, actin like a crazy syko You and kaylie both, are a f**ing drama cycle I've got very few friends, but yet I'm fine with it I've been lonely since the start, cause I can't commit I'm sick of long hot days, with an empty stomach We've got air conditioning; but can't afford to run it My family ain't seen the grocery store in 6 weeks Eatin dollar burgers every night got me feeling weak I'm eating one meal, once a day at 6 oclock After dad returns from work, countin tips from jobs My parents cigarette addiction, doesnt help at all 1 month behind in rent, in a deeper hole we fall Things getting turned off, im growing used to it I'd rather end my life, then deal with this stupid sh** Im always luckin out, its never going right for me I don't get paid for this sh**, i f**ing rap for free Its my therapy, the only one who cares for me Ain't scared to see, or judge the crazy pain i've got inside of me Raps for me, and i ain't lookin for a better route Express myself; safer way to go and get my anger out