LP - The Struggle lyrics

Does life have a price? If so do I have enough? Enough to walk through them pearly gates before the door shuts, I use to be a better person back when God was first in my life, I started being impatient and depended on money to make it right, Standing on the edge of a cliff, should I just jump down to the bottom, That would be a tragic fall, one of my worst Autumns I'm living my life live yours And girls stop complaining 'bout thangs, like why are all the boys thirsty, I'm just dancing to "Make it Rain" Everyone around me is expecting me to be great, That's enough pressure to make me wanna escape My aunt sent me a message and wished she had a son similar to me, And similarly I wished I was the person she thought I could be, I'm Sorry To my grandma, man she prolly got it the worse, 'Cuz when she wasn't looking I was steady going through her purse To the girl in Williston who was gonna stick around, But ended up leaving me because my ex dragged me down, To my past life I hated it, but move on is what I did, But it's hard when yo ex girl calling you talking 'bout she pregnant with yo kid. It seems like I always want attention, But that's the thing I hate the most and that's why I come up missing. If you get a chance just listen, listen to my struggle, Of being black and young and tryna make it out the jungle. I hurt the ones that love me the most, And put my heart and soul into people that eventually turn into ghost. How would life be if my dad showed me the ropes. Stop those thoughts right now don't wanna build up any hopes. I built myself from the ground up, hopefully I will be the King, The King of this thing called life, and all the joy it might bring. I'm sorry to everybody I let down but eventually you will see, That God is steady changing me to the man he wants me to be.