LOUDEN - Since You Left lyrics

[Verse 1] I still remember when I met you on my block Waiting at the bus stop You were trying to spit game, but I didn't wanna talk I was only fifteen and in need of a friend Next day you caught me slip in at the bus stop again Posted with my homie Bruce (?), we was introduced Mama said: Be careful who you give your heart to And it's true, cause, when I gave it to you There really was no limits to the things that I would do At sixteen I gave birth to your son Zaire (?) He's my life-saver, but his daddy's just a player They say that love is blind, but what I come to find Is that love shouldn't make you feel sick all the time And now I realise that this love was merely fear Now I see to clear, when I'm looking in the mirror You give and you get, compromise and respect After all you put me through, yo I still wish you the best [Hook] I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone) I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone) [Verse 2] You was k**ing me slowy, but I couldn't even see it Threats about taking my life when I talk about leaving Emotionally tangled by your abusive lies And I wanted Zaire (?) to grow up with both parents by his side Your pride so high and your ego so evil, deceitful Never did I feel like your equal People told me to leave, said I didn't deserve it You shot down my self-esteem Made me feel worthless on purpose Said I'm flirting, just 'cause I'm laughing at a joke Even had a dress code, I couldn't have let it go My success [?] in your eyes and action And every time we've made love, I felt [?] distraction You dismissed my side of the story, you made me feel stupid Put me down in front of my friends, why you always gotta do this? Even spit in my face, in front of our son That's when I knew, I knew that I was done [Hook] I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone) I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone) [Verse 3] You were never the person you portrayed in the beginning And without you by my side I feel I'm finally living I slipping in the darkness, but now I see the light And it shines so bright from within me every night [?] regardless, how do you love somebody who's heartless? All I know is [?] I finish where I started It's time to be a woman, I'm ready to grow up Never saw myself as beautiful until we broke up Now I'm going back to school, pursuing everthing I doubted Sometimes I sit and wonder if you even think about it If you even realise all the unnecessary drama How could you be so cold to do this to your baby mama Never knew you was a burden, until I stopped hurting Until I started breathing and I opened up the curtain I know this fissure (?) and I'm a razor baby, right And now I realise my importance in this life [Hook] I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone) I've been thinking 'bout every night, since you left I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)