Lou Burna - Bad Man lyrics

Was raised right, but grew up into a monster/ Influenced by the music, the fluid and the ganja/ It wasn't you momma, pops did his job too/ You can't hide from the demons thats inside you/ Momma always said, "one of you boys is an addict"/ I dont know yet, guess I'm still working at it/ Still searching how to get out of this lifestyle/ Wasting my days slaving got me turning to a night owl/ Right out of a high, to a low/ Ask me why? i dont know/ And i try to control/ But I can't get a hold of my anxiety still/ So I'm swimming in bottles while I'm fishing for pills/ I wish I could chill/ I'm a Bad Man momma... My brother just had a baby/ I just got a maybe for a big gig, and sh** they might pay me/ We all hype ain't we YALL/ No it ain't a new life, but this could be the new life that I been waiting on/ Banking on something to change/ So I can give my family something to say/ So they ain't blushing with shame/ When my name comes up in the conversation/ At another congregation, bet they bring me up in moderation/ So they ain't stuck explaining Where I'm almost at, and why I'm never around/ And why I still ain't settling down/ And my head is in the clouds/ I ain't lettin up, but I'm lettin em down/ I need to put this medicine down/ I'm a Bad Man momma... My brother just popped the question, I just popped a pill/ No it ain't at no church, but my name is ringing bells/ I think I'm doing well, they think I'm in a well, just wishin/ To them I'm only on the net = swishin/ Cuz they ain't seen me in months, or heard my voice/ So they asking how I'm doin when they run into my boys/ Running out of poise, I want em unaware/ I don't want em knowing I'm the son they wanna fear/ I'm hiding skeletons, my closet a haunted house/ I grab a pair of airs and they all are falling out/ All the thought about if I does or if I doesn't/ Got me buzzing running to another subtance/ I'm buggin/ I'm a bad man momma