LOTUSMusik - Socially Awkward lyrics

[Verse 1] Honestly tonight I might just slit my wrist/ Everyone around me just keeps on talking sh** Why the f** should I change you so I can please you/ I'm socially awkward if you haven't noticed then please do I have a strong relationship with my inner voice/ They think I'm great & I never make a bad choice But you the person that's suppose to love me/ Unconditionally & never put someone above me You think I'm strange, I'm a weirdo, I'm gay & plus I'm a psycho/ Why don't you just medicate me just like they did to Michael I'm pretty sure you would love it if I was dead/ But instead you rather say that I'm touched in the head I'm no longer the five year old who used to life/ I'm the twenty-three year old that be screaming f** Christ You're probably thinking that you f**ed up somewhere down the line/ But you didn't this is just how I live my life [Hook 2X] No I don't care what you think of me/ Why should I I live my life so carelessly You can ask every psychologist at Oxford/ They'll all say the same your sons' socially awkward [Verse 2] On to my favorite topic you think that I'm a f*g/ When it comes to girlfriends you can't count how many I've had How many serious relationships have I been in/ Zero cuz I didn't love any of those women If I don't love a girl why should I bring her around/ We're just f** buddies we don't even hang out I don't f** them in my place cuz I find that disrespectful/ I call it being courteous you call me a h*mos**ual But if you want I'll just bring my f** buddies home/ I guarantee you'll see & hear things that you don't condone I know a couple of good girls that I really like/ The reason I don't bring them home is because they got three strikes You f** up with me three times we're not gonna make it/ Three times in under three months come on girl just face it I guess I'm wrong women do not want a gentleman/ So every woman should love me because I'm devilish [Hook 2X] No I don't care what you think of me/ Why should I I live my life so carelessly You can ask every psychologist at Oxford/ They'll all say the same your sons' socially awkward [Verse 3] OK I'm emotionally dead/ Cuz I don't give a f** about what you just said But why should I all that matter's that I'm happy & healthy/ Well I'm happy & healthy so tell me why do you sweat me You say a corny joke & I don't even crack a smile/ Did you ever think it's probably because I don't like you style I've always been this way I've always kept to myself/ It's in my nature I don't need motherf**ing help Cuz I can tell you myself why I am this way/ It all started in 97 back in the second grade Getting bullied everyday it became a ritual/ So it's not hypocritical that I'm no longer spiritual I know now it doesn't matter what other people think/ But I didn't have this mentality when I was a little kid When I was younger parents they were overprotected/ Everything was good at home but at school things were reckless Stupid motherf**ers getting on your nerves/ When they cross the streets you wished the other cars would just swerve & hit the little ba*tards you wish they all die/ You're too young to be feeling like this inside Everyday you keep going through the same sh**/ Until you realize get a knife from the kitchen You found a way to solve all of your problems/ k** them all no longer are they a problem They f** with you so much they lower your self-esteem/ Not only that it gets embedded in you psyche So now you're thinking that something is really wrong with you/ Starring at the mirror thinking what I'm gonna do Popping pills, smoking weed, getting drunk/ f**ing random s*uts, thinking suicidal, not giving a f** Suicides' the only way to make the pain stop So I guess I might as well just let the . . .. [Hook 4X] No I don't care what you think of me/ Why should I I live my life so carelessly You can ask every psychologist at Oxford/ They'll all say the same your sons' socially awkward