Lord Of The Lost - Beyond Beautiful lyrics

I'd love to hate you and I hate to say goodbye Although it's real I've been living in a lie The more I know the more I hate I have to run I deceive myself It's like necking with a gun For this time I start to realize that life's a b**h She hits you in the face and gives and tender Judas kiss Every thought is like salt in my wounds Until they're scarred you think she's bothering you too In a different place No expectations just our will I am losing you pace by pace When I look at your perfect face You're Beyond Beyond Beautiful I hate to love you but I do I can't deny I found myself by losing you in better lies It's 5 past 12 maybe I was still too young I will hurt myself by hurting you on my ego run In a different place No expectations just our will For the last time your perfect face Pale and dead When I carry you to your grave You're Beyond Beautiful