!llmind - The Break Up (Friends Turn Into Enemies) lyrics

[Emilio Rojas] Now I been losing sleep to my anxiety This world is full of fiends I'm losing friends to my sobriety No one's what they seem My girl just spent the whole night crying for me She swear to god I cheat so every time I step outside the crib She beg me not to leave, I know relationships need trust And we don't got enough, y'all finding friends I'm finding alibis inside the club, nowadays I'm talking less Every conversation leads to arguments And I don't care who right or wrong, I just want it all to end I started texting other broads again ‘Cause you just been accusing me non-stop I might as well do what you thought I did And I been harboring resentment so it's hard to a keep a friendship When your heart just isn't in it girl It's hard to keep pretending, all my dogs is telling me That I should leave like yo, you bad for my career You say you not, I believe you, ain't no spark And we ain't f**ing, we can't come to an agreement I'm addicted to the drama, I don't love it but I need it We been screaming at each other, other day, I almost hit you sh**, I never thought of touching a woman till I was with you And that scares me, now I don't like that side of me If you don't understand why I been driven How the f** you plan to ride for me? It been bubbling inside of me, I've been dealing with quietly Are you struggling with trust ‘cause I don't struggle with monogamy Truth is, it don't really make a difference ‘Cause it don't matter if I'm honest if you still are asking questions We been stressing over money, we been beefing over bills And keeping track of who been spending what That petty sh**'ll k** ya, I don't care ‘bout other b**hes though I'm grown, I've had my fill, I'm tryna lay this foundation That the both of us can build from, we supposed to have some children And adopt your nephew and get a condo in the lower With an Audi and a dog we rescued Sometimes I wish that it could all be simple But ain't no way that's gon happen When you think about the sh** we been through Your father hit you, sh**, you hinted at him touching you It's probably why you love to call me daddy when I'm f**ing you You validate yourself through s**uality and love from dudes And girl, it's been a while for us so tell me who you running to You staying late at work and sleeping out Got me feeling like a guest in my own house sh**, I been sleeping on the couch Coming home in clothes I know you can't afford And it's crazy, who been buying them for you ‘Cause girl, I know it ain't me Who been taking you for dinner? You don't eat at home Already know the answers to these f**ing questions I should leave ‘em ‘lone, sh**, I don't even know you lately You a stranger and the closer that I get to my success The more you change up, you claim you want me winning But with every little victory gon' come another argument You b**h and talking sh** to me You begging me to keep you company in all your misery You telling me you'd die for me but you refuse to live with me See women in my industry and call ‘em like I'm f**ing ‘em But I'm just working with these girls You think I fall in love with ‘em And after that sh** happen, when I see ‘em, I be ducking ‘em ‘Cause I don't want the drama to catch up with us I know I should be done with us But something keep me here and keep you with me Conversations give you more ammunition to use against me Try to see you, you won't let me and you text me like you miss me How the f** your full lips feel empty when you kiss me? Wish it was different, yeah, but girl, it isn't And now the one I can't live without is not the one I live with I been out with different women every night just to forget it But it don't feel the same, now something missing Something feeling out of place, ain't no reaching you What the f** you wanting me to do? You're dead to me Now I ain't getting over you, I'm grieving you You made an enemy of someone who believed in you But something ‘bout us make me wanna be with you, damn