Lil Nas X - SUN GOES DOWN lyrics

[Chorus] I wanna run away Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life Send me a gun and I'll see the sun I'd rather run away Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life Send me a gun and I'll see the sun [Post-Chorus] You need an instant ease From your life where you got plenty Of every hurt and heartbreak (Oh) You just take it all to the face I know that you want to cry But there's much more to life than dyin' Over your past mistakes (Oh) And people who threw dirt on your name [Verse] Since ten, I been feelin' lonely Had friends, but they was pickin' on me Always thinkin', "Why my lips so big? Was I too dark? Can they sense my fears?" These gay thoughts would always haunt me I prayed God would take it from me It's hard for you when you're fightin' And nobody knows it when you're silent I'd be by the phone Stanning Nicki mornin' into dawn Only place I felt like I belonged Strangers make you feel so loved, you know? And I'm happy by the way That I made that jump, that leap of faith I'm happy that it all worked out for me I'ma make my fans so proud of me, oh [Chorus] I wanna run away Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life Send me a gun and I'll see the sun I'd rather run away Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life Send me a gun and I'll see the sun [Post-Chorus] You need an instant ease From your life where you got plenty Of every hurt and heartbreak (Oh) You just take it all to the face I know that you want to cry But there's much more to life than dying Over your past mistakes (Oh) And people who threw dirt on your name [Outro] Ha-ah, ha-ah, no-ah