The story comes in use When I disappear I lived in a dream world Away from my fear This world is much too demanding For me to stay I took all the chances I could take Holding my head in my hands I won't look back Holding my head in my hands I lived out my weakness Protected by lies I felt all the pleasure Behind my disguise My life was a secret But nobody cared When I was in in pain They all just stared (x2) When I look back I won't lose regret And I'll never forget The things I did I felt the shame And I couldn't share This pain will always be here Holding my head in my hands I won't look back Holding my head in my hands Holding my head in my hands I won't look back Just holding my head in my hands