stumbling on the words again. trying to make it all sound positive. but 40 miles heading south with the radio preaching to me i shouldn't be happy with me. well f** you is all i have to say because self-doubt can still hurt me today. i'll live my life my f**ing way. with self-doubt in my heart in my way. while my culture says i'm not ok. i've spent too many days with a smile on my face to have not found an amazing place. long island diy. and despite our faults we can build something amazing. if we believe in ourselves. and a good friend has said to me he may still wish he's 15. i told him to create his own circumstances. yet i truly understand we can't always make our lives seem happy all the time. just remember the strength is always there. sometimes it's not all easy. so let's take a step back. question everything and tell ourselves we'll make this ok.