Lara Johnston - Take It Hard lyrics

You take it hard Your darkest days are all behind you You take it hard Don't go so far away And I can't find you I feel like my heart is gone And every night I wish you that could feel this pain all over Every moment after this I'm new to all sensations of pleasure and recreation Doing anything for some sedation starting pacing And stress is starting to show up in my body Losing weight Losing sleep Losing sanity Somebody tell me how to deal with this I've tried it all I've cried it all Until I couldn't cry at all Babe you have no idea Cause everybody has expectations of how long they think Your pain is suppose to last Fool, they're saying you should get back off the pine Force to smile like everything is fine Life is getting easier with time I'm lying to myself and I'm stubborn to admit it Cause everyday it gets a little harder to forget it And every second hurts It's only getting worse Your momma' say I need to go to church But it's too hard You take it hard Your darkest days are all behind you You take it hard Don't go so far away And I can't find you I swear I never meant to hurt nobody when I started this I wish I could go back in time and not play any part of this Cause now my family broken hearted It's too hard to swallow this Pill that I feel made of steel What's harder is I'm wrong And I feel the guilt lying in this bed of nails that I know I built Trying to escape but I'm trapped inside this cage And this cage is on the stage So I can see my pain But I'm still way too ashamed I'll take a plane I'm running away I'm packing my bags I'm leaving today You can try to stop me but I've made up my mind It seems its constantly changing I'm constantly changing And ain't nobody facing what I'm facing So I'm racing but I don't know what I chasing But I'm running strong But before I'm gone I stop inside the moment just to find someone that told me Because when it's gone It's gone It's gone And it's too hard You take it hard Your darkest days are all behind you You take it hard Don't go so far away And I can't find you Ain't no way to change it face it Look it in the face and tell it I ain't about to let you affect me Wreck me You promised you said you would protect me So even when it seems like you can't fight I know that it's always gonna be alright Cause life is many mountains And valleys are all around so go ahead and win it, win it You take it hard Your darkest days are all behind you You take it hard Don't go so far away And I can't find you