Lana Del Rey - Tired Of Singing The Blues lyrics

You know sometimes I think god Is playing a little game with me Looking down from heaven, laughing Tryina see how much I can take Because the way things go, it's like a joke Nobody's had more shots at the moon and missed than me It's like I got my life stuck, stuck on rewind Trying to makes something of myself, life's got something else in mind I'm fighting a losing game and I'm biding my time You won't be my man, do I understand, no, stop I don't want to hear another word about your 'why not's', I bought Your bullsh** it all before now you trying to sell me more, babe Man who makes a beast out of himself got nothing to lose Sold my soul long ago, nothing left to choose I'm tired, tired of singing the blues I'm tired I'm walking down the streets, you wouldn't know what I was thinking It's just another white girl day, hey, ribbons in my hair, and I am sinking down A double life, a sordid past, and I am drinking now I want to be bad You say you were glad to see me shut up I don't want to know another thing you think you know about me I'm not who you think I am, smiling but I ain't happy A man who makes a beast out of himself got nothing to lose Sold my soul long ago, nothing I can choose I'm tired, tired of singing the blues I'm tired Oh, my soul forgot, I can't turn off my mind It's like a ticking time bomb trying to k** me from inside I mean day and night Is there no remedy for memory? I've felt this way before, I've known the depths of desperation My boyfriend says I'm like an old movie star with loneliness as my occupation I know that he's right but I don't care tonight I want to be bad, I want to be bad, I can't stop I keep running around the same town, knocking you down, I'm f**ed How can I get out when there's nowhere to go for miles around A man who makes a beast out of himself got nothing to lose Sold my soul long ago, nothing I can choose I'm tired, tired of singing the blues I'm tired