Lady Paradox - Train Stations and Playstations lyrics

(Verse 1) I put my all into this one special person But in the end it added up to too much hurting Cursing on the phone and threats that I'd desert him Our theatrical performance was no longer working So in the end I just had to close the curtains I'm certain things could've gone a better way But if they did who's to say that he'd have never changed? Anyway, I'm trying to find the ground from which I'll levitate But pressure weighs my mind and I'm back to square one Going round in circles and asking ‘wheres the care gone?' I swear one thing I know is – you can only rely on yourself when you're hopeless I know this now but now its too late If I knew this then I wouldn't have made those mistakes But take the good with the bad And if the bad overtakes then remember what you had [HOOK] Because you were a part of me And a part of you is still with me but its scarring me And a part of me sometimes asks – can't we be? But you apart from me Its true – I'd rather be (Verse 2) Your eyes and mine – that was what love was But somewhere down the line all the good got cut off Now hearing you rhyme has got me thinking what could've been And how you should've seen that you were crushing me But in the process you thought that you were loving me I would've been there for you – you only had to ask But now you're sad cause all we had collapsed And now you made the crack a major gap Going crazy mad stating that you want your baby back I'm just a part of the puzzle in your hazy past And yeah you made me laugh and times were so beautiful for a while I'd wait a whole damn month to see that station smile (Hook) (Verse 3) So now I'm here and its been two years but I'm Still unclear – please break it down Its been so long – I can't hate you now Hating how I'm back at the same song - the pain ain't gone Asking mary-jane to make me strong And there's tainted songs that I can't even listen to Train stations, Playstations hold a bit of you And its crazy – I swear I wasn't missing you Until you came back just to show me what kissing you felt like And it felt nice I should've stopped you first – cause when I got with him you got with her Its crazy – I feel lost on earth but when I've got your words I'm meant to be Its stupidity – he's twice the man you'll ever be Two times nicer and I know he'd never threaten me Never put me secondly – never ever stressing me the way you did What made you flip? What made you the way you are? What made you make me like this? I've hid from love like its virus And now I'm always high look, just like we used to be Just another reminder of us – of you and me