Kuhmposure - Dreams lyrics

I crave the idea of these things Diamond with gold rings Well in the background a canary sings I wanna be living fruitful But need to diminish my pride Need to stay humble But to hard work i need to abide A lot of the times, i feel lonely inside Sad Thinking what if i blew my opportunity To have unity with a soul Be the root of the pole The fire to the coal The bobcat to a the hole What if it was me Who deferred a dream No langston, but changed my own hues From a vibrant variety to all blues My own brain inside is the problem I see And the only way i know how to solve it is with apathy But i still chase these dreams Still find a way to pick myself off the floor Currently living in a failure galore Trying to see the light on the other side But it always seems to be blocked by my own mind My o my What if i am bi-polar What if i should take anti-depressants Cause the mind of these adolescence Is so different from mine Maybe its just a sign Just god telling me i gotta work harder Push myself farther Take the breaking point and push it Sometimes i feel like im losing my mental Thinking life is just a rental Get to sentimental Nostalgic Im appalled and feel repulsive But f** it I keep pursuing these dreams They shine on in my mind like light beams That prod through the seams Can't u see my schemes arnt memes just obscene means to conquer these dreams Im a fiend when it comes to them An animal Animorph Avacote Who a**a**inates dreamer's abstinence A boy who beckons at the pen And decends through the rap he mends A creator in the mind A loss in the find A crease in the fine A bend in the line Wow look at me, im a dent to redefine But im unique specifically So my words give me authenticity Lyrically im the apitimy of chivalry Hit u with the tongue as my blade Thoughts as the shield Wield edged steel But dont keel or appeal To how u motherf**ers feel To ridged from the rivers Dead from deprivation Speak tones like a wanna be caucasian Everbody's to busy with hatin, blazin, and hazin, yall gun dry out like a raisin Well im raisn to higher levels Diving into deeper depths To become the better than the f**ing best To rule all the rest Im on a quest Yes this is how it is and how it seems Cause when they ask why im always sleeping, i say im chasing my dreams