Knowmad - Thinking Cap lyrics

If I had one more chance to spark the light in your eye See the light beneath the dark of weeping heart that won't cry I imagine how I try to bring you comfort from grief And heal the pain that once hurt but my lungs hurt to speak And I feel it as my tongue search for the words I would use Could I heal you with this one verse as you hung from the noose I would choose to bare my soul and help you roll with that wave And try to fill that hole before I'm told of your grave But how was I to know you seemed unfazed by it all If I knew you weren't safe I would've embraced your fall But the wall you hid behind was the kind you can't crack And with no warning signs to give me time to react I sat back and shot the sh** saying don't sweat the b**h Women love playing games and they all out for dick Besides we live to spit and keep it free off the dome You said word I feel you kid that sh** is true to the bone So we went into the zone and k**ed a cypher with fact And before we headed home you asked to trade up our hats I said it's my thinking cap and I'll need that sh** back You said I'll rock it til I see you and I'll leave you with that I said word, his hat was fly and had a Y on the front Gave him a pound goodbye still feeling high from the blunt Punched him in the shoulder, don't forget what I told ya He said don't sweat it son cuz the relationship's over I said word you'll sober up, I'll catch you out on the flip He said I'll see you when I see you then he bounced to his crib So I bounced as he did and headed straight for my bed Got the call the next morning, you were already dead Put the burner to your head and did it like that I sat and asked myself why I didn't seen the Y on your hat Thinking cap and in my hat your caped ya thinking I couldn't stop a drowning man from sinking [3x] If I knew then what I know now how would that affect you Turn a sword to a plow and try to resurrect you I'll let you know about all the pain that I kept too Reflect who I am now, I wonder would I get through I bet you would doubt about the light I let through I guess you were out before I even met you Your d**h was a cloud, a shroud that would protect you From the rest of the crowd, you were too proud to look for rescue Express truth about the doubt that was embedded Should have walked down that route and saw where you was headed And shed some light to give you sight in the dark And bled with you that night til you were right in the heart Cuz right from the start I knew apart of you was missing But I was too retarded and never started to listen Now you have departed and imparted me the mission To finish what we started when we first started spitting Truth to the rhythm, the wisdom of how we're living You were driven past the point, faced the joint for years in prison And no point in living, now when giving the fact And with that loaded gat you put your brains through my hat That's a fact I can't ignore, we're more alike in the mental This resonates the hammer strike that went right through your temple So I write with the pencil, the instrumental tryna find you To bind you to the rhyme, a Hip-Hop shrine that you can climb to To shine through the dark, become the spark in my eye To reflect the sacred art and touch the heart I can't find Remind me why I started all the styles I fathered And why I martyred my heart or from the start even bothered Imparted me a piece of your essence So in my presence mothaf**ers better see you when I release you in a sentence In the same resemblance marking the remembrance of my loved ones Emcees will know your steez every time I free to son one (Hook)