Kmfdm - Disgust lyrics

I want to cry I live and die I search and find I waste my time I plead my loss When I dread my cross I reached my part And seen disgust I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on To my disgust I take I creep I laugh and sleep I roll in thunder But still I wonder I (?) I grow But sometimes I wonder My mind's so slow I gotta hold on To my disgust You should see it work The politics and dirt Give it to me inch by inch In the (?) style Take it from me mile by mile As the rich come in You see this earth she cries While the rest of them smile I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on I gotta hold on