Kj-52 - Fanmail lyrics

My arms are sliced up but I'm not embarra**ed It's the only way I get attention now from my parents It's not like they really take the time to be caring They just use me to watch the baby when they run they errands My name is I got a friend named Karen She gave me your CD with the track for Eminem You wrote a song called #1 fan I listened and I wanted to know if you can help me like you was helping them She had something even harder to be mentioning Like every single day I struggle just with fitting in Plus the boys won't give me no attention and I get teased and made fun of by all my friends and then See I'm feeling like I'm wishing now that I could end My life 'cause I'm sick and tired of all the time I spend Trying to figure out how I could be worth anything Can you help me KJ from your fan I'm writing this letter 'Cause I have to tell ya I need some help from you I'm writing this letter I hope that you get it I need some help from you I live with my mom ever since my parents split And at home I spend my time on the Internet Looking at p**n I'm addicted and I'm sick of it Myspace dot com is mostly where I'm getting it On top of that there's videos that I can watch And I really wanna quit but its like I can't stop See I'm scared that I'm just gonna get caught And when I see a girl all I think is dirty thoughts And it's not that I don't know that it's really wrong But it's right there for me every time I'm logging on I got all your CD's I really like your songs Well I downloaded em but anyway moving on My screen name is KJ-52 is the bomb I want to do a website KJ rocks dot com I really some help 'cause I can't tell my mom Oh by the way my real name is I'm writing this letter 'Cause I have to tell ya I need some help from you I'm writing this letter I hope that you get it I need some help from you I took the time just to write you We play you every Wednesday at my youth group I love your music and we all think that you's cool But I been struggling ever since I moved to a new school See everybody thinks that I'm the perfect Christian girl I had a hard time trying to believe that God is real I've been on mission trips and camps the whole deal My dad had cancer tho I prayed that God would heal But he died anyway so it's hard to feel Like he cares about me so was it God's will To take away my dad I really got a raw deal Sometimes I just want to swallow all my mom's pills When I pray I really doubt it I've lost my way or maybe I've never found it I been smoking and drinking nobody knows about it By the way my name is don't mispronounce it... If I could write to every kid that's out there Every kid that's hurting feels like nobody cares I would tell them that God can wipe away tear And he's right near and I would say it quite clear Your here for a reason you're not a mistake You are a special creation that God Himself made To the victims of abuse to every girl that was raped You can live you can be free from your pain And find strength and no longer be ashamed You can find peace and hope in Jesus' name You ain't gotta live with this hurt every day Christ came to give you life in a much better way To every kid right now that's full of hate And bitterness I'd tell em just to give it all away To the one that came to take all the blame That's what I'd write here's what I'd say