Kitchen Knife Conspiracy - Inverted Insertion lyrics

Life is like a pressure riot and my head is caving in You wanna see me stoned, you wanna cough a little You wanna trench pill zones, you're gonna puke a little You wanna hold my hand, you better be a giver You know in this game I am a helpless lifer You wanna know my strength, you're gonna feel some weakness You wanna invert this, you're gonna get some sickness You wanna get inside, you wanna make it clearer You wanna see denial, look in the lying mirror Is this the way you like it? Is this your honesty? Invert the perfect k** dust, Insert it into me There is no god that walks beside me Controversy, Anarchy has taken over me, deep inside me You're gonna get real stoned, You're gonna get uplifted You have to give me your soul, You're gonna get enlisted You're gonna feel agony until I am finished You're gonna lose everything, but you'll never miss it Darkness calms my soul Depression wraps around my face Shovel the pain that won't escape Look at me now, I'm paranoid Searching to find to fill the void of this horrible life, and I'm a mess Will the numb phase ever change? The fears have started to mate in me Leaving me blind and shaken up And now I barely feel alive Look in my eyes, I want to die So sick and tired of "I'll try" Watching me live my selfish life